WHY HELLO THEREEEE :D

i havent blogged in SO freaking long Dx
hahaha.
ANYWAYS.
whats new?;;
-i got a new phone
-i feel like my friends sometimes forget im alive.
(im always the one to text or call and it hurts my feelings.it really does.)
-ive been trying to call my bestfriendinthewholeworld Kelli for like 3 days now.i miss her so much :(
-leahs gone for the weekend and i miss her D;
-i wrote an EXTREMELY LONG letter for sheldon
-i had pizza for dinner xDDD ahahahah.
&& dr.pepper to drink [:
-my tummy hurts right now :/ blehhh.

my current favorite song is "The First Cut Is The Deepest" by sheryl crow.
i dunno.it just perfectly fits how im feeling.

x o x o

w h o a.

i had the most horrible nightmare last night.
ill explain it tomorrow XD
right now.im wide awake talking to steffy at midnight.
and im happy.
WHOAAAAA ;D

update on my life?ahahah xD

I'm partially depressed.
woop.di.doo.
[that was sarcasm there folks]
oh so many reasons.
giving up on him still hurts.like hell.
i cant look at him without almost crying;
i cant hear his voice without almost crying.
i found the perfect song for me when i was camping.
"Iris" by The Goo Goo Dolls.
it fits perfectly how i feel.
when i heard it,i almost started crying because its EXACTLY how i feel.
now if you dont wanna read anymore about crying stop here xD (no seriously.)
when i was in the shower today,(i have these zune speakers to play music)Iris came on and his image popped in my mind and i almost started crying.one or two tears fell.they were hiding behind my eyes.they still do.
x o x o

dearLeah.

leah rae.
D O R Y.
gahhhh D:
i miss youh already.
you've been gone for 24 hours.*freaks out* xD
heehee [x
i hope you have a great time at your jb concert(:
there is much more to say.
here it goes.
-takes a deep breath-
I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
BEST.FRIENDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
<3
HEEHEE xD
joes arm.nemo.dory.sheldon.edward.bella. [:
you know the drill.
*HUG*
roflmao.
you squeezed under mah door like a hamster to comfort me while i cried from missing you(:
i love you so much<3
CANT WAIT TO COME BACK SUNDAY!
x o x o
janie

dearBailey;

bailey marie.
im going to be leaving for 5 days.
i need to you try & do me a favor?
stay strong<3
i know you have a lot going on,but if you ever wanna think of me,go watch the video i made for you.Ashley&Vanessa-Inseparable.
We are inseparable(:
i love you so much.
ill miss you SO MUCH.
im coming back sunday.
i will text you on the way;
&try to talk to you one way or another;;
like if we go into town to get gas for the truck ill try and text you for a few.
but ill lose my signal when we start driving back to camp.
ON MY WAY HOME;;
ill text you as soon as i get a signal back.
i will have a new 'shattered angel' episode.
(like you havent previewed some ;]) heehee xD
my new video.
& ill work on a new video.dedicated to you.
you are one of my best friends,i dont give a care if your over the internet,
we have gotten to know each other for TWO YEARS.
im very blessed to have such a fantastic best friend.
cant wait till you come to hang with me here in the blazing hawt az(:
i l y s m<3
fly with me.is our best friend song.dont you forget it :D
x o x o
janie.(yourVanessa)