Talk about one amazing Thanksgiving.

Not only the food,but good lord.
I got to talk to the guy I love.
It was...amazing.He likes me back.That's an incredible feeling as you all might imagine.
I kept smiling and blushing when he talked. "I bet you look cute when you blush."
If only he could've seen.I must give him props for sitting through a 3 way phone call. xD
Right now i'm trying to cheer up my best friend leah,she misses her boyfriend Jay.
no fear dory,nemo is here(:
x o x o
janie

"I don't care what they say,i'm in love with you." <3

Weekend:
This weekend has been pretty good so far.I've luckily gained back my happiness,I don't know where it was.I was just feeling down basically all week.Right now i'm playing Cafe World on facebook and listening to music from Adrienne's blog,because her playlist has a lot of amazing songs on it xD I went and slept over at my best friend Kelli's house last night, and we also saw New Moon.It was freaking AMAZING.A lot better than the first movie I think :) I'm pretty sure i've changed myself to Team Jacob,and not just because Taylor Launter looks hot shirtless ;D



School:
Ugh.I'm ALREADY sick of it.I have been.It's just tiring now,and I can't focus that much anymore,and I'm trying my best.Three days this coming week..I'll try and survive until then.

My Love:
I just really wish we were together already.My best friend Leah's intuition says that we will be Feb.24 but how is that going to happen when I don't even have contact with him right now?It's a lot of pain and yet,extremely amazing to be in love.(so i've heard at least).All I know is I love him and really miss him.I wish I had someone to talk to about him,but no one will.The only person I had to talk to about him,got tired of it.Can you blame me?Not thinking I have a chance with a..superstar?I really can picture being with him.I've never looked at ANY OTHER GUY like i've looked at him."Not many people your age can fall so hard for someone,especially someone they can't be with constantly,so it has to be destiny,it wouldn't make sense if it wasn't."(Leah) All I hope,wish,dream for is him.I hope your intuitions are right leah,because I don't know how much longer i'll take this heartache on.Something inside me won't allow me to give up,I don't know what it is.But i'll just listen to it.



x o x o
janie


With him,i'd dance in a storm in my best dress...Fearless. <3

"Time is the coin of your life...."

Time is the coin of your life. It is the only coin you have, and only you can determine how it will be spent. Be careful lest you let other people spend it for you.-Carl Sandburg

Yes,clearly I googled time quotes and sayings xD What for you may ask?Well I was thinking about how dang slow this week went by in my world.It's been like a neverending week. :/ I'm really glad tomorrow is Friday,and I'm pretty sure I actually have PLANS for once.HOORAY FOR FUN :D Me,my mom,and my best friend Kelli && I think her mom also are going to go see New Moon(: woohoo.Afterwards i'm pretty sure Kelli is sleeping over.I'm excited :)

So I have a science quiz tomorrw,that I haven't even studied for,eh :l I guess that's what lunch time is for xD haha.I'm just so tired this week,and I've been really down & sad all week,I'm not sure why, I can only think of a few possible causes.I'm doing pretty well now,I had so much fun in science with shelbie today. :D We made clay models.Shelbie and I made a witch...it was supposed to be Lady Gaga but it epic failed xD oh well :P

My head hurts D:
Well I shall now continue playing my addiction,Cafe World. (:
x o x o
janie

OH NO.MY FISHYS ON HAPPY AQUARIUM. -sprints away- xD

Everytime you smile,I smile.

This song is exactly how I feel about the guy I love.
It's by Taylor Swift.Check out the lyrics && go listen to the song :) <3

i don't feel like spacing this all..so google the lyrics yourself dang it xD
haha kidding :P

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/taylorswift/jumpthenfall.html
I like the way you sound in the morning We're on the phone and without a warningI realize your laugh is the best sound I have ever heard I like the way I can't keep my focus I watch you talk, you didn't notice I hear the words but all I can think is we should be togetherEvery time you smile, I smileAnd every time you shine, I'll shine for youWoah-oh I'm feeling you babyDon't be afraid to jump then fallJump then fall into meBaby, I'm never gonna leave youSay that you wanna be with me tooCause I'm gonna stay through it allSo jump then fallWell, I like the way your hair falls in your faceOh, You got the keys to me, I love each freckle on your faceOh, I've never been so wrapped up, honeyI like the way you're everything I've ever wantedI had time to think it overAnd all I can say is come closerTake a deep breath and jump then fall into me Cause every time you smile, I smileAnd every time you shine, I'll shine for you Woah-oh I'm feeling you babyDon't be afraid to jump then fallJump then fall into meBaby, I'm never gonna leave youSay that you wanna be with me tooCause I'm gonna stay through it allSo jump then fallThe bottom's gonna drop out from under our feetI'll catch you, I'll catch youWhen people say things that bring you to your kneesI'll catch youThe time is gonna come when you're so mad you could cryBut I'll hold you though the night until you smileWoah-oh I need you babyDon't be afraid please jump then fallJump then fall into meBaby, I'm never gonna leave youSay that you wanna be with me tooCause I'm gonna stay through it allSo jump then fallJump the fall, babyJump then fall into meInto meAnd every time you smile, I smileAnd every time you shine, I'll shineAnd every time you're here, baby I'll show youI'll show you you can jump then fallJump then fallJump then fall into meInto meYeah

Newspaperrr. (don't want no paper gangstaaa.)

Sorry..I HAD to add in those song lyrics xD
So right now I technically have one story,but I need another one to work on.
I was thinking about doing one on Miley Cyrus and like the good and bad of her,
like everyone's opinions sort of and why has she changed so much from being
a "role model" to a "seductive dancer". Shelbie's hating on me because she doesn't
think I write "real stories" but I DO. The Miley Cyrus story WOULD include interviews.Seriously...i'm insulted.Pshttt when I come out with my own books,we'll see who writes the real stories :P
x o x o
janie

"and I wonder if I ever cross your mind.for me it happens all the time."

As you might have read,maybe,I don't really know xD
In my other blog I was talking about the heartache i'm having
from the guy I love.It's just.I don't know.All I desire is a chance
with him,but it's not easy considering i'm the idiot who fell for
a superstar.He's not even that famous yet.How long though,
will it be before he meets some girl better than me.I'm
just another wide eyed girl,desperately in love with him...
I hope leah's intutions about him and I are true.If not.
I have a LOT MORE pain coming my way.
x o x o
janie

"i'd rather feel pain that feel nothing at all,but i just need you now."

At I sit here listening to sad songs,I wonder why life is so conflicty.
Why is it one moment your happy and the next your sad or depressed?
It's just so.I don't know.repetitive.
You can't choose just one path always,you sometimes choose both.
I'm REALLY REALLY tired and frustrated with school,and the year isn't near over.
I don't know how much longer I can't be in this Integrated Science class,before I crack.
Okay,retaking the class is horrible enough.But the immaturity level?That's what pushes my buttons.You know how i've been repeatedly blogging about the guy I love,well it seems like the pain is pushing harding and harder on me.I woke up this morning,not wanting to goto school.At all.I can't stand sitting in that science class anymore,and two of my friends were going to be gone during my science hour,so what's the point.I went anyways.

When is my life going to make sense for once?
The answer?never.

x o x o
janie

friday the 13th.DOES bring bad luck;;

I waited to talk to Jay all week long,
but I understand he was really tired it was 2am where he was,
When I wanted to talk to him tonight.
Time differences suck :[
I cried for over an hour tonight.
Then I got back on here and talked to Leah;
& She's one of my bestest friends in the whole word;
It really helped.She made me smile :P
I'm listening to music from my friend Adrienne's blog xD

School:
I'm really terrified of not graduating right now.I'm doing alright,but I just wish
I was born with more talent in the education area.I was blessed in the english area,
but not Science or Math.I'll keep trying my best,it's all I can do.I'm tired of the pressure
they keep putting on us about credits still,it's really pissing me off.

My "love":
Alright.Seriously.
I'll feel so hopeless and stupid for falling him.
Is it too much to ask for and beg for?A chance.it's all I want and need.
Please god,he has the other half of my heart.

One of my best friends:
Ever since she went through this depression phase,she's different.
And I don't like it.at all. :(

xoxo
janie

I just found this quote...

and it's beautiful..

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two." -St. Augustine

being a girl :I //the week.

okay so guess what mother nature brought me yesterday;
clearly by the title you can know -_-
but i don't go all PMS and attack people xD
i get stomach aches from HELL.
no joke ):
*cry*
now i know why i desperately want wendy's :D
heehee xD
ANYWAYS.
This has been a completley crazyyy week.
It's felt like an endless week of school;
Today I woke up and i'm like really?It's FINALLY friday!!
Jay's calling tonight :) That's what I have looked forward to all week.
Now if only I could have Wendy's for dinner tonight..that'd make my day ;D
xoxo
Janie
PS:I'm probably going to be addicted to Adrienne's blog because she has amazings music on her playlist :D

Update? :D (LOVE) <3

So i'm going to steal from my best friend Leah's blog (:
"He has my heart like I have never given it to anyone before.He has my trust as if I've never trusted before.He has my faith, much like I have never had faith in anyone before. "
Leah's blog on Love REALLY REALLY was amazing.
What I quoted her on above,is kind of how I feel.
Right now,I'm in love.
Not falling,I'm IN love.
With whom you may ask?
A superstar.
Do I have a chance?Maybe.
Right now,adding up the events that have occured between him and I is is destiny?Yes.
Was Leah right?YES. xD I ADMIT IT!!!!!!!
She has this intuition that he will go out with me,no denying.I deny it endlessly,but Leah threatens me with her salami stick.So i'm going to just let myself fall for him.
He isn't real famous yet,and I met him once.But I feel like there's this amazing connection there. I can't explain it.No matter how much pain i've suffered through to get here,I'm here for a reason.I'm here now nonstop daydreaming about him for a reason.
You know what??Everything happens for a reason.
I love him and hope he'll give me a chance.
I love him with everything in me.
I have my own intuitious feeling i'll be with him before Christmas.
x o x o
janie