"i'd rather feel pain that feel nothing at all,but i just need you now."

At I sit here listening to sad songs,I wonder why life is so conflicty.
Why is it one moment your happy and the next your sad or depressed?
It's just so.I don't know.repetitive.
You can't choose just one path always,you sometimes choose both.
I'm REALLY REALLY tired and frustrated with school,and the year isn't near over.
I don't know how much longer I can't be in this Integrated Science class,before I crack.
Okay,retaking the class is horrible enough.But the immaturity level?That's what pushes my buttons.You know how i've been repeatedly blogging about the guy I love,well it seems like the pain is pushing harding and harder on me.I woke up this morning,not wanting to goto school.At all.I can't stand sitting in that science class anymore,and two of my friends were going to be gone during my science hour,so what's the point.I went anyways.

When is my life going to make sense for once?
The answer?never.

x o x o
janie