OH MY J O N A S.

So during the live chat on facebook;;
GUESSWHAT.!
Kevin and Nick Jonas replied to stuff I said.
OHMYGAWD.
Well first off they were talking about Peter Pan,and then joe was telling people to dress up as peter pan or wendy at the concerts.so im all "your giving people ideas joe"
then NICK'S like "yeah joe your giving people ideas"
AND ALSOOOO!
They were talking about going to wikipedia to figure out about poison ivy and such so im all "GOOGLE!" and then kevins like someone just randomly said google.THAT WOULD BE ME!
THIS MAY NOT SEEM LIKE A BIG DEAL TO SOME PEOPLE.BUT I STARTED JUMPING UP AND DOWN AFTER THE CHAT AND FREAKING OUT!!!NEXT THURSDAY I WANNA TRY TO GET THEM TO SAY HI TO ME THIS TIME!
AHHH!

b a i l e y // mahVanessa.

So i've known this chica named Bailey for 2-3 years(: she's one of my best friends.I met her through the internet also.DON'T JUDGE ME PEOPLE xD I have real life friends too ;P
ANYWHOZ.So today I was trying to teach her club penguin so we could play games there just cause some of the games there are fun,and she came into my igloo,and cussed xD and shes like "WTF.I GOT BANNED." i was like "well no duh.your not supposed to swear.its a kiddie site." it was hilarious.she made like 3 accounts xD *laughs* i love you bailey.thanks for being such a great friend and helping me through these rough patchs in this thing we call life :) *hugs*

Dory.

"dude chillax on the icecream" -me
"well its like.my little one and its good." -leah
"we had tortellini for dinner last night.it was SO GOOD." -me
"oh im jealous." -leah
"for sureee." -me
"i am.i had like veggie burgers." -leah
"ew." -me
"don't hate on me XD" -leah
Leah's one of my best friends.We have conversations about the most random stuff.and by the way everyone,YOUR JUST JEALOUS BECAUSE DORY,NEMO,AND SHELDON ARE BESTEST FRIENDS.


*cough*poned.

L U K E;;

It doesn't just remind me of Star Wars,but a 4 letter name that broke my fragile heart.

8th Grade;;
I remember the first day.I wore makeup and looked cute(according to my mom xD).So in Tech(computers)Luke taps me on the shoulders and asks me if i'm new,I laughed and said "No.i've been here since 4th grade." He said,"Oh.i've never noticed you before." The bells rings and instantly i'm crushing on him.I had quite a few classes with him,which i was really excited about.When the teacher assigned his seat next to mine in Math class,i was dancing on the inside.
Plus he was good at math,which isn't my best subject.He'd usually help me in class or in the morning during study hall.We started talking more and more and then texting.He only liked me as a friend,which i did NOT know.He lead me on a lot,he seemed pretty flirty to me.There was this super annoying guy Daniel right?He ALWAYS irritated me.Luke would get him to leave me alone.I saw him shove Daniel once even.My best friend Kelli and I were walking out of the class like "ohhh dang!".Luke and I had a really cool friendship,then I heard about Miss Perfect. -_-
Her name is Kim,she always has amazing grades and dresses flawlessly.I don't think she knows what ponytails or sneakers are.Just saying.So when I overheard people say Luke and Kim are dating,I got out a piece of notebook paper and wrote the harshest song in the history of harsh songs.It took away the place of me wanting to cry my eyes out.I cried a lot at night.Then more and more songs came.It was like songs were pouring out of my heart and soul.He eventually just flat out stopped texting me back and talking to me.I never knew why.I spent nights crying my blue-green eyes out,staring at the piece of notebook paper with the "Invisible" lyrics by Taylor Swift on it.The song fit me like a charm.And he NEVER knew how hurt I was.I'm still hurt to this very day.
Freshman Year(High School);;
Now it's high school.At the beginning of the year I tried to text him a few times,he never replied.I just gave up.Nowadays I don't even look at him when I pass by.I want to slap him accross the face.Kidding.I had a plan.
Luke-hey janie.
Me-who are you?
Luke-remember me from 8th grade?
Me:i used to know a luke,but you can't be him.
My plan was simple as that.If he ever talked to me again.It still is my plan.I got some great songs out of me,and I still song write.I've moved on from him.He's in my past now.My memories won't fade.If a guy leads me on like that ever again,Leah has permission to roundhouse kick him.

shattered.

she doesn't know and i wont tell her how much my hands are shaking,and how fast my heartrate started beating when i knew.im permanently broken.

i dont like depressing weather.

i hate it when its all super cloudy.
but i love the smell of rain :)
so do you ever sit there with your head against the window looking up at the clouds when your in the car..?that's what i was doing on my way home from the movies.
i went and saw Night At The Museum:Battle Of The Smithsonian.
it was really hilarious and good.go see it!and guess what JB fans?the jonas brothers play cherubs and its great xDso while i stared out the windows looking up at the clouds.
i ponder why my prayers havent been answered.or how i can live with the feeling that i hurt someone(no i didnt kill someone xD im not psyco)but emotionally.i wondered if i should still stay friends with her...its just too complicated.she D O E S love him more.that is clear&obvious to me.she needs him.its hard because i can't EVER forgive myself for leaving her and breaking her down like that.it felt like so long ago,but i won't ever forgive myself for it.not now,not ever.i can apologize a thousand times to her,and she will accept it,but never will she realize i feel awful.

Try not to fall TOO hard for a guy you don't know,and DON'T EVER cause drama with your friends or be too immature about stuff.

You might end up in my position.
Broken.

all i wanna do is cry.

thats not a song xD
im serious.
im seriously about to cry.
please dont ask.

SCHOOLS OUT FOR SUMMER.

Goodbye freshman year.hello sophmore year!
HOORAY!
SCHOOLS OUT SUMMERS INNN :D
woohoo!

please find her.

So what i really don't get is how you can love someone and need them,when you don't even know them.I have a best friend,that loves the same man but we don't compare to the "love" we share for him.That was an awkward sentence,I don't know why xD ANYWAYS.She is always telling me how much she needs him,and I know it hurts her knowing I'm another girl that loves the same man she really wants to marry.She's been through A LOT.A lot more than I have experienced.I understand and respect who she is.I just wish that she knew that I love him just as much,I know she knows that.But she doesn't realize IT HURTS ME when she talks about her wanting to marry and have kids with him,and that she needs him badly.I think she does deserve him,but so do I.So I haven't been through as much as her,but I've been through friendship hell and back and broken hearted extremely(i'll blog about who it was sometime.) Honestly,sometimes I just want to shut her out,that sounds very horrible,but sometimes I just want to walk off...and run as far as I can.She's ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS and i love her like a sister,but loving the same guy can get a little intense.That sounds like a soap opera.haha.

I wish he knew who she was and knew who i am.That better happen this summer.She really needs him,maybe more than I do,and i want him to meet her.So if i don't get my chance this summer in August.She better get her own chance to meet him.

Joe please find her.
x o x o

ScienceSucks.

So i've NEVER been good at science.Just my luck,the final was today.
(not like i didnt know,im just saying)
So I worked SUPER hard on my study guide;;
&& studied for what seemed like forever.
Studied last night,after my math final(today),and a little bit before class started.
Just to find out,I wasted my time.
NOTHING FROM THE STUDY GUIDE WAS ON THE TEST!
WTH!?!?!?
What is the point of that...????
The final was super ultra hard,and i almost started crying after i took it.
I DO NOT want to retake science.
I hate it.end of story.

makeitafreakshow//here(in your arms)

those are currently my two song obsessions.
& so is Circus Face(circus remix with poker face).
today was the last full day of school.THANK GOODNESS!
tomorrow is my math&science finals -_-
EWIEEE!
but then im free from math and science FOREVER.
well until next year xD
i want to thank google for being amazing.
and leah for being so smart.
THANKYOU.
well im very distracted from getting the last two answers on my study guide;
& i N E E D to study until im crying that i don't want to anymore.
WISH ME LUCK ON MY FINALS!
x o x o.

NEWViDEOOO.

So i spent ALL DAY making a new video.
sv(sony vegas)was being dumb and kept like making clips go poof O.o
i was like *sigh* RECONVERT.like 5 times.
it finally started being nice,and cooperated.
my new video is gonna be mileycyrus.
if you don't like her thats your opinion.so don't tell me it (:
hmmm.im pondering wheather bailey disappeared or is taking this dang long to goto the bathroom.
right now my video is rendering,and if it doesn't turn out ok,i will NOT be happy. xD

"NEMO?!that's a nice name."

so last night i took tylonol & went to go lay in my bed and chillax then goto sleep.
GUESS WHAT WAS ON WHEN I WAS FLIPPING THROUGH CHANNELS xD
finding nemo(: woohoo.
it was right at the part where the pelican is telling nemo that his dad has been searching the entire ocean looking for him.
and the amazing dory,well shes just my favorite character.
i love how when their all in the big fish net,close to the edge of death,and they are all trying to swim down,and dorys like singing "Just keep swimming.." xD
thats definitely one of my favorite disney movies.
everytime it would be like "Don't swim away finding nemo will be right back"
right before it's gonna go on commercial.i instantly think of Leah!bahaha!
x o x o.

goodnight&goodbye.

my head hurts.
its been hurting.im too lazy to go get tylonol.
ill get some before i goto bed.
and i seriously have like a trillion new video ideas xD
hooray for ideas and intelligence..!
anywhoz.
i love blogging much better than twitter.
BLOGGGGGGGGGG.
wow.
what was that?!
bahaha (;
xoxo.

britneyspears.

MAKE IT A FREAKSHOWWWW.
i apologize for the random song lyrics.
i have my zune software up so i can sit here and listen to music.
i wonder why people think JB fans only have like "cheesy stupid" pop music.
i just said i 4 damn times. xD
&& have any of you people heard Circus Face?
its a remix of Circus with poker face.
you would assume i'd be sick of circus after listening to it so much because of dance.
but nope.
SPOTLIGHT ON ME AND IM READY TO BREAK.IM LIKE A PERFORMER THE DANCE FLOOR IS MY STAGE.
so out of my spotlight beeotchss xD
kidding.
peace outtt<3

yearsbooks//high school.

So i've been putting off and forgetting to get a year book all freaking week.so i finally went and got one this morning.woohoo.my best friends took up pages *coughs*COURTNEY.KELLI. XD
This year of high school has been very very fast.faster than i thought it would be.im glad its almost over.finals next week(ew) then THAT VERY LAST DAY.im desperately hoping to pass my science final.i need to study for the life of me.im horrible at science,how do i explain it..i hate it so much and all of it wont process through my brain and i cant pay attention to it,because i know i don't even need it in my life.i feel like im disappointing myself and my parents by not passing.school is imporant to me,even though it's not the greatest thing in the world clearly.overall the journey of my first year of high school has been interesting.i met awesome new people Kaitlin,Jamie,Jess,etc..!I experienced depression.all i can say is im over it for good.two weeks was enough of that.im happy now.even though stupid finals are next week for math,science,and dance.a final in dance?!?yeah i know its VERY stupid XD but we get to use our study guides so im cool with it.

dory.

i have this best friend & we met over the internet.shes not a creeper and i have proof.woohoo.
ANYWAYS.
She has been through some really rough patchs,that i can't go back and erase.
I try my best to understand,but I know I never really can.
She means the absolute world to me.
I'm glad I met her.
Even though we're miles and miles apart,shes still holding a part of my heart.
that was cheesy.but i dont care(:
She's one of those girls that people just will judge and not give her a chance.
wth is wrong with people nowadays and being so judgemental?
I accept her for who she is.
So she's got some personal problems.Well maybe if you opened your eyes and ears you could hear her story.
I can't go all the way to Nebraska,but I can try to talk to her,cheer her up the best i can.
I loves her.shes one of my bestest friends even though I can't call her or text her,goto her house.
It breaks my heart to hear about how often she crys.She doesn't deserve it.
She's gorgeous inside and out.
She's MY DORY && IM HER NEMO.poned.