please find her.

So what i really don't get is how you can love someone and need them,when you don't even know them.I have a best friend,that loves the same man but we don't compare to the "love" we share for him.That was an awkward sentence,I don't know why xD ANYWAYS.She is always telling me how much she needs him,and I know it hurts her knowing I'm another girl that loves the same man she really wants to marry.She's been through A LOT.A lot more than I have experienced.I understand and respect who she is.I just wish that she knew that I love him just as much,I know she knows that.But she doesn't realize IT HURTS ME when she talks about her wanting to marry and have kids with him,and that she needs him badly.I think she does deserve him,but so do I.So I haven't been through as much as her,but I've been through friendship hell and back and broken hearted extremely(i'll blog about who it was sometime.) Honestly,sometimes I just want to shut her out,that sounds very horrible,but sometimes I just want to walk off...and run as far as I can.She's ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS and i love her like a sister,but loving the same guy can get a little intense.That sounds like a soap opera.haha.

I wish he knew who she was and knew who i am.That better happen this summer.She really needs him,maybe more than I do,and i want him to meet her.So if i don't get my chance this summer in August.She better get her own chance to meet him.

Joe please find her.
x o x o