The week of ultimate hell.

Just read the title,nuff said.This week was just so...let's put it into one word..well it's rather an expression...UGH!I had AIMS testing on Wednesday and Thursday (today).The math AIMS really sucked,because the second part of it I didn't know at all hardly.It was geometry,and i'm not to that math level yet.Your required to take this test,and need it to graduate.I need to pass.NEED TO.Today was Science AIMS,which wasn't so bad because it's not required to pass and doesn't count.Which,total cool beans for that one.It wasn't really that hard,some of it was confusing,but it was alright.What I don't understand is why teachers want to pile work onto us,when we're already stressed over testing.It's like they don't understand we have lives outside of school,and other classes.I just don't understand it.I know we're being forced to learn but,hello,reality check?Biology and Math are my worst classes right now.Bio is just draining me to no end,and I hate walking in there everyday.Hate.it.My teacher is constantly giving us worksheets, (good lord.LOTS OF WORKSHEETS.) and stupid packets.It drives me completely insane.Math is just not my best subject either,never was.I'm just trying my hardest,and hoping it will all be okay.I'm just so stressed right now,and I have nothing to relieve it.Not even music can help me,not even you.

I also found out today,that the day of mine and my boyfriends 3 month anniversary,he's working.I won't be able to talk to him.No one really cares,but that really hurts.I miss talking to him,more than anyone could really understand.To top it all off,he's really packed full of working,until May basically.I haven't heard from him,technically,for a LONG time.I miss him so much,it hurts,it does.I love him,with my all of my heart and soul.I understand that he's busy with work,but sometimes,I just wish he was here with me.I often cry myself to sleep at nights,because..I can't stop myself from not crying.


My brother Conner,pretty much lives to make me miserable.He actually think it's and I quote HIM "comical." Are you serious?You think it's funny to piss people off?How would you feel if I pissed you off,didn't stop pissing you off,and then laughed at you.Seriously,what the hell is that.He called me heartless the other day for not watching some 'funny youtube video.' I get that he's going through his little 'hormonal' stage or whatever crap that is since he's thirteen,but I mean HE DOESN'T KNOW ME.He doesn't have my life,he doesn't live as I do.He isn't going through anything that I am.He doesn't understand me.

I know all of this may not seem like a big deal,but this is my life.No one is ME,nor will they ever be.No one feels the way I do.Tomorrow's friday,and I have tests and more homework to do right now.

Freaking.A.