Teenagers + Love.

You know what?Whoever says that love is easy,is a LIAR.Love isn't easy,not as easy as it seems to be at first.I miss my boyfriend.That's the end of it.He's busy with his job,and i'm busy with school.I really just want to graduate and be done already.School just freaking sucks.I don't like waking up early,I don't like being told what classes to take,I don't like testing,I don't like homework.Who does?Because if you do,your absolutely insane in my opinion.I'm literally sitting here in my computer chair,listening to Alicia Keys,just about crying.To top it all off,my brother just called me heartless,for not watching some damn 'funny video'.My life is great isn't it?I'm horrible at math and not passing it right now,I have a freaking AIMS tesing on math tomorrow.Geometrys on it,I haven't even LEARNED Geometry yet. (I'd like to thank my dad,for just now yelling at him.Thank you daddy.) *sigh* I just don't understand my life sometimes anymore.You know,I get called a dork and all.I don't mind it honestly.But sometimes,I wonder if people find me as "immature".Because that's kind of an insult.I just like to have fun.I didn't USED to be the way I am now.I 'broke out of my shell' as my mom says.I used to be very quiet,and not willing to talk to many people.I dance down grocery aisles,and sing songs with my best friends in public.Your only young && a teenager once,so why not make the best of it?I try to,but sometimes being a teenager,really really sucks.I said something about being in love with my boyfriend once talking to my best friend Gilliene,and some 18 year old in my Theatre class overheard and said "Your fifteen.your not in love." Who tells me if i'm in love or not?I AM IN LOVE.I'm deeply,madly,truly,hopelessly in love.No matter how bad it hurts sometimes from how much I miss him,I know it'll all be worth it in the end.For now,I guess tears are words that the heart can't say.
x o x o
Janie